"BESTFRIEND"

It wasn't a long time ago when me and my best friend, Jenema fought. its a common thing with best friends to fight about something. but some things are very dark that you must hide them  for the sake of that friend.

one day, when me and best friend went roaming around at a mall.I felt chills suddenly came from the back of my spine when I heard those words, "i still have a boyfriend". I felt like I was going to drown from the random emotions that I felt. I didn't know what to do. should I be angry at her? should I understand her?. but those emotions i felt compiled into one emotion. it made me feel ashamed. I didn't realize how stupid I was believing that she was truly honest with me since we were best friends since grade school,I thought that every time i ask her something, she tells the truth. now i doubt even if she was my best friend. 

as time pasted by, iv'e  noticed that she isn't talking nor texting to me even if she has load. i felt angry that she only said sorry trough the phone when i knew that she was still with him. i didn't feel jealous at all. its just that aggravating feeling that you feel when someone keeps a secret from you.

then. onetime. she texted me, "can we meet? i want to discuss our  fight...". i replied, "why? what for? and where?". then she replied, "come fetch me here at our shop. i'll wait for you". so I went to fetch her. as i rode the jeepney. my heart started to pound. as i looked down, strangers look at me as i sweat. it gave me more tension as I was getting nearer and nearer to their shop. as i entered there shop, she told that i should come in because her parents are not around and she's alone sitting at a plastic chair inside their shop full of car parts. as i look at her. my sweat drips across my neck as she started to open her mouth and speak. she said... "hi". i then replied "hello". as she whispered random things. i never got to listen to her daily activities that had happen for that day. i felt very a anxious for what she will say. then it came to the point where i ended up leaving her shop without a clue on what she might have said to me. the night after i went to her shop, i called her and had a conference with a friend of mine. i'm ashamed of what i said when we had that conference. i ended up almost losing my 1st loved best friend in my life. as i was privately talking to her. i felt like crying because on how she reacted on my reactions. i didn't know that she protected me from those people from her school who mocks me every time her schoolmates sees us together. i didn't know that she loved me that much. that she would lower her pride just for me. even if she has a boyfriend. she still cares for me. i don't know why she does those things for me, even if she has her own special person to care for. that made me realize that being a friend to someone means to be with her  whenever she needs you and even if she doesn't need you, you are still willing to be called a friend even if some people would start to mock you, call you names, and even pick on you. "friendship is one of the most beautiful things on earth, we need friends to share our thoughts, and share our happiness and sadness in life...